Feels Like Home Again

So many happenings, so little writing. As much as I love blogging, I had to take a break. I simply did not have the energy for the longest time. Sometimes it's hard to live life in such a techno-connected world, which is why I don't 'advertise' my blog on my Facebook or Twitter--I like to control who among my friends reads me. I'm among the 'blogging is my therapy' crew but sometimes more is needed. Some of my real-world friends know that I struggle with the demons of depression, control freak tendencies and anxiety, and to put it plainly, I crashed hard earlier this year.
Fortunately, The Powers That Be (or He Who Listens to My Crazy and Gives Me Pills) steered me to a clinical trial for a potential new antidepressant. All I can say is that I loved this mystery drug and I hope the FDA approves it ASAP. For the first time in years, I slept for more than two hours at a time during the night. I had whole weeks where I didn't cry once. I felt like 'me' again.
And feeling like me meant that a couple of weekends ago, I loaded Grandma into the car and we roadtripped to Memphis. She stayed with her cousin and I stayed with my aunt and uncle. My uncle chairs a scottish festival and I try to go as often as I can. This year I even got to be a judge in the Bonniest Knees contest. Blindfolded. Oh yeah, baby--I got to grope the knees of numerous Scotsmen..and in one memorable moment, I almost discovered what the Scot wears(or doesn't wear) under his kilt. And the sheep kept escaping, and we smuggled a keg of beer into the church kitchen. Good times with my family! It explains so much about me.
This past weekend was my birthday and it was quite possibly the best birthday I've ever had. Family friends threw a small 'family' party for me on Thursday and I had a delicious dinner with a friend on Friday and then on my actual birthday another friend took me to brunch and then I went to the 4th annual Amethyst Ball--dressed up! for my birthday! and purple girlie drinks! Finally on Sunday my Bestie (we're so over the BFF sobriquet) and I watched "Dirty Dancing"--well, we finished watching it. We had started it the previous weekend for her birthday but as usual we talked through most of it.
The love life is deserving of its own Lifetime Movie for a while...there was/is New Guy but we're not a 'couple' and recently out of nowhere, The Guy reappeared in my life. There are things I like and maybe-not-so-much-like about them both...I'm just having fun(with both feet on the ground, thank you very much. I'm not that liberated) and waiting to see what happens next.
Things are not perfect but they are much better. I'm hoping to get back to blogging because I do *heart* it very much, and I'm full o' funny when I'm happy to be me.